Labels: Sorrow is the sign of a new life...
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Labels: baybee covered my mouth so hard =x
4:59 AM
alone* in the rain;
super unhappy...
moody...
depressed...
miserable....
heavy-hearted...
ill-fated...
gloomy...
pessimistic...
haix feeling so down...
this wk was the worse wk ever...
cos of his mum...
haix no matter hw hard u try...
things still don work out between his mum and me...
so sickening...
and he was really down...
because i suggested to him that...
maybe he shld find a better gal...
who wont gif him prob...
can take care of herself...
forever making him happy...
and lastly his mum like her...
and he was really very demoralised...
and told me...
why i try so hard and at e end of the day...
u ask me find some1 else...
why cant u say u will be the suitable person in my life...
den i was like ehhh i said maybe only...
i was suggesting...
den he almost brk again...
cos he was so down tt i said tt...
and tot i really want it so badly...
the wanting of him being wif some1 better...
haix i'm really damn sad, gloomy everything negative...
his mum, him, my parents, my frens, ppl around me...
everything seems to be crushing...
nt going the rite way... and it don feel good...
i donno why...
i cant stop crying...
even when i was wif u today,
but we didnt even have any personal time tgt...
i need a hug badly...
i want to feel that i'm wanted...
haix...if time could just stop...
and take all e negative things away...
it will be damn wonderful...
or staying in a place wif nobody i know...
nobody to judge me...
haix i'm tired...
and i know u're tired too
i found this meaningful...
Proof that you loved that person
Can it be helped that the wound of losing that person hurts you greatly?
Are tears streaming from the wound instead of blood?
This unrelenting pain is probably eating you away inside.
The cry of pain has probably become a wail.
As long as you are you, you will have this pain in your heart.
However, and this is important, in time you can get accustomed to this pain.
This pain is proof that you are you.
This pain is proof that you loved that person.
Accept the pain as pain, and live through it.
Of course, you need not follow after your loved one to prove the depth of your love.
The proof is in your heart.
4:58 AM
alone* in the rain;
haix...
i wonder...
i ponder...
i think...
i reminisce...
i consider...
i reflect....
but still things are still e same...
why does happy moments last for a short awhile...
and
troubles....
problems...
mind-blowing issue....
disagreement....
dilemma....
conflict...
argument...
misunderstanding....
seems to be multipling rapidly...
faster than i can keep up to...
i cant stand ur attitude whenever u wake up...
if u're so tired i can always leave ur place by myself...
y must u always show me ur attitude whenever u wake up...
den after that apologised...
u didnt even say bye to me x.x
u didnt even say anything ._.
den after i sms u...
all u said was sry...
i don need ur sry...
y whenever i tot thing were going normal...
den some nonsense will appear...
and i still cant stand ur mum...
no matter hw hard i try to ignore and nt to piss her off...
wad's wrong wif sharing the same chair x.x
den she nv say u, only say me...
can ask u get off the chair also wad...
forget it...
eat finished wash hand....
how many times she wan to say...
u also nv wash....
y must so be so particular!!!!
empty promises from u...
tot we agreed nt to smoke...
den u still smoke, still say smoke abit only...
quit must quit, no abit or alot...
cannot do it den don promise...
u also tell me tt line...
but u urself cant keep it....
sian la...
no mood...
4:57 AM
alone* in the rain;
CRAP!
BULLSHIT!
NAIVE!
MY WISHFUL THINKING!
always though thing were going fine,
but it all just my WISHFUL THINKING at the end of the day.
i donno why thing always go this way.
i donno wad u are thinking.
and i am damn fking tired of it.
i changed,
u changed,
but y! everything still e same! does e problem lies wif u or wif me?
i really donno!
i damn tired of this.
even today i go wif my fren u ask so much.
i feel like a criminal.
even if there was a change of plan,
i didnt reborn my hair,
u also not happy.
not like i didnt explain to u why.
cos i didnt have time! and i don1 u to be unhappy.
so i didnt reborn my hair,
cos i wont go home late.
and u wont unhappy!
like tis think for u also wrong.
why u must keep bringing up abt the past.
past also past already.
is wad i do now, that matters in the future.
u cant let go of the past, keep on unhappy!
i don feel good at all! totally not!
i feel damn fking useless!
my bf unhappy i cant even do anything tt will cheer him up!
no matter wad i do, wad i say,
we're just going round in circles.
no matter hw hard we try.
maybe we're just not meant to be.
don keep on telling me u feel insecure.
is u are the 1 who keep on making urself feel that way.
u don1 me go out single dates,
i didnt already, nw group outing also cant???
and don need to ask me whether i agree to break.
just do wadever u want,
wadever decision u make,
just tell me.
u wan u leave,
i wont stop.
i will face all the emotions myself.
4:56 AM
alone* in the rain;
sat...
baybee was late, so we end up not watching movie...
he went back to slp... wad a piggy!
den he ask me go find him for lunch at kovan...
so i went, had lunch tgt... bought lots of tibits...
den went to his place for movie, Hotel for dogs..
he wanted to watch...
den i went to slp after e show lolx...
woke up for dinner den watch dark water, den slack slack den go home...
sun..
i had easter party =D
and baybee was suppose to meet me at bugis for movie...
but but but he was tired and we didnt watch e movie...
went to find him again, had my cup corn lolx! yummy!!!
and went to his place and did something lame which is playing audi!
lolx cos i gt nth better to do...
den i was hungry....
so i asked baybee to cook maggie mee for me...
haahs 1st time he cooked for me... lolx
i was just jking when i said i.. didnt know he will agree to it..
ty baybee ;D
den i play psp and he was reading comic online...
i played psp till i fall aslp.. lolx!
den he said i was laughing in my slp!
hahas i guess i was dreaming of smth funny...
den play psp again lolx! den when for dinner
his mum cook fish congee eeeeks but i ate abit and baybee took so much for me
! so in e end he finished it for me lolx...
after tt watch devil wear prada den play psp and baybee fall aslp...
wad a pig ;x
i was damn hungry!
so i went down for my late dinner den cab home...
baybee i don care next wk i want to watch knowing!
u PIG!
4:54 AM
alone* in the rain;
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i haven blog like so many days....
cos my com was spoilt...
and my laptop was down too...
everything was spoiling =(
so sad...........
really had a tough week...
without com, my days were so boring....
i even went to lan shop and do my assignment...
so hillarious!!!!
i bet i was the 1st one...
den i sleep talk to my niece...
she told me i was asking her that why my panda cannot walk???
soooo random lolx....
and i said smth like there was a button on e panda for me to press, den it can walk already...
den my niece took e panda and wore it on her hand and said see is a puppet...
den i was like ohhhhhhhh ok, den i snatch it back from her...
and went back to slp lolx!
so kukufied!!!! lolx
waaaaaaaaa den i super duper ultra pissed wif groupmates!!!!!!!
fk them man a bruch of grown ups who thinks that they are damn fking mature!
fk u la! rarrrssss....
heee's don care abt them...
as long as gt my baybee can already...
yest i made my baybee damn disappointed =(
sry baybee...
gif me time to adapt to ur changing k =D
and i'm sry that i made u cry...
miss ya darling <3
4:54 AM
alone* in the rain;
after so long...
after so many promises...
so many i will change for u...
so many i don't want to lose u...
but still, u still nt rdy for this rs...
i donno why...
i really love u alot...
but this time i wont make u stay...
after 1 yr plus...
this is wad u're still telling me...
den wad for i ask u to stay...
it totally don make any sense at all...
so what if i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u don even care..........................
roarssssssssssssssssssssss...........
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERY PART OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO LET GO
4:53 AM
alone* in the rain;
tsk tsk...
today was a long tiring day...
woke up at 6.30
bath, change, left house, for job..
kns steven make me come so early x.x
next time i will come later reach at 9 =x
den start at 10 end at 3...
well it was raining, and i had a little misunderstanding wif my baybee...
cos during work i could not take my hp...
and i told him i end at 2...
well cos of some misunderstanding, my baybee was angry wif me, and didnt want to meet...
lucky in e end we still met =D
i miss u lotssss<3
had so much fun wif baybee today...
den came home and accompand baybee play audi...
cos we wanted to try the new couple 31 mode =D
tsk tsk baybee & i sync very well.
most of the time we manage to get 31 hearts.
and win the other players, whose lv was higher =x
tsk tsk i miss hugging my baybee just like in e audi pic =x
look so sweet!!!!!!!!!!
muacks! darling i love u
4:53 AM
alone* in the rain;
i cant slp again tonight...
so many issues going on in my mind...
shld i let u go, so tt u can be happier...
i don1 to see u being wif me all stressed out...
and worried abt this and that...
i don1 u to feel insecure...
even though alot happened...
but nth like tt will ever happen again...
i really tried to make u feel secure and love by me...
but i don think is euff to make u happy everyday...
maybe if u be wif another gal will be better...
after all u said, i am not the gal for u...
even though, u love me alot...
e feeling for me is so deep...
but i attracted too many guys...
but treat them as fren only...
i really donnno wad to do...
shld i let u go, and suffer tgt wif u for a few mth or yrs...
b4 u find some1 new...
OR shld i walk wif u. seeing u sad,stress out, worried abt me everyday...
i just wan u to be happy...
even if nt being wif me..
haix i donno wad to do...
4:52 AM
alone* in the rain;
it's the weekend again =D
suppose to meet baybee for 11.30am show...
but! as usual baybee could wake up!
after my countless morning call!
den i went back to slp... lolx!
until 10.30++ he answer ._. but i kinda sian already...
so he went to prepare and decide to watch 1.30 show..
but donno leh, i think call him till i abit pissed =x
so i went back to slp, kinda tired too...
so in e end we meet at 3 at amk..
to watch COMING SOON at 3.30
omg tt show damn scary!
nice story line... but damn freaky!
i kinda keep on screaming =x
and baybee covered my mouth so HARD!
lolx guess he ps ba =x bring me watch horror show...
den went for dinner...
add a big big! chicken drumstick!
and baybee said e drumstick big euff to cover my face! lolx...
walk walk slack slack =D
den go prata house slack slack till kinda late...
den poof buai buai baybee=x
cya next sat again <3>
4:51 AM
alone* in the rain;